so u must have noticed i havent been putting anything up lately. thats cause i havent done any art. at all.
i dont know why.
i think it has alot to do with random shit im dealing with.
i cant seem to concentrate. just yesterday i finally snapped and grabbed some watercolors and went insane in my sketchbook. obviously it looked like crap. i didnt stop thoug. i just got markers and basically mutilated a good number of pages. it was almost as if i was in a trance or something of the sort. i just couldnt stop. now i cant even come close to my sketchbook.
i think that im repressing so much right now that the min pen touches paper, everything i bottle up begins to explode and get thrown onto the paper.
pencil insn't good enought anymore, it dosent leave a powerfull enought mark to match the emotions im feeling right now.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i feel so lost, so indicisive.